I eyeballed him, disliking that I noticed how exceptionally fine he looked, and I waited to catch my breath before I responded. “Yes, I do feel better now.”

“What are you doing?”

“Well, you don’t need Sherlock Holmes to solve that mystery.” I reached around my back to untie my apron.

His eyes narrowed and his mouth flattened into a hard line. “Are you upset with me about something?”

“Yes.”

“What?”

“The fact that you’re breathing, I guess.”

Over the last three days, Drew and I had spent plenty of time together. During all of that time, he’d quoted Nietzsche never, he’d recited poetry not at all, and he’d barely spoken. Even worse than that, he hadn’t touched me—not once.

Meanwhile, there was a wild boar of need within me; one that he’d awakened with his quicksilver eyes, poetic words, velvet baritone, heroic deeds, and expertly choreographed kisses.

He’d left me to drown in want.

Drew shifted his weight, his head tilting to the side as he regarded me. Despite the shade and shadow provided by his hat, I could tell that he was fighting a smile.

“My breathing bothers you?”

“Sometimes.” I removed the apron, ducked into the shed, and hung it on a nail where it lived.

If I’d said what was on my mind, I would have told him that his self-control bothered me.

Or maybe it wasn’t self-control. Maybe he’d lost interest.

Or maybe there was something appallingly wrong with me. During this time of sorrow and stress, I wanted to lose myself, forget about my worries, and debate the merits of mustachioed eighteenth century philosophers, or relive our soul scorching, pride destroying, body claiming kiss.

Drew met me inside the shed and blocked the door with his body. “How are you doing today, Ash?”

“I’m just peachy, Drew. I’ve been trying to butcher a rooster for the last hour, and I can’t bring myself to cut the damn cock. How’re you?” I was hot and it was stuffy in the shed, so I pulled off my long-sleeved shirt and draped it over one of my shoulders; this left me in my tank top, jeans, and work boots.

He studied me, his eyes moving from the top of my head down to my stomach, likely taking in the sight of my wild hair, red cheeks, and sweatastic torso.

“You just browsing, or…?” I motioned to myself and lifted my eyebrows. I was hoping to convey impatience rather than the fact that his perusal was most definitely melting my butter.

“Are you feeling frustrated, Sugar?” He said these words softly, liltingly, like he was speaking intimately with someone, or like he was speaking to someone with whom he planned to be intimate. Drew reached behind him and pushed the door. It squeaked as it closed.

My eyes flickered to the door then back to him. He removed his hat and tossed it to the side, and that’s when I saw intent in his eyes—clear as frosting on a cake—and I was momentarily stunned.

Before I could get a handle on the situation or process how to respond to it, he crossed to me in four steps, backing me up against the cabinet in the shed, and captured my mouth with his. My long-sleeved T-shirt fell to the floor. I barely noticed.

I’d like to say that I pushed him away. I’d like to say I didn’t welcome his kisses and caresses. I’d like to say that I didn’t greedily untuck his shirt and greedily touch every inch of his solid stomach, chest, and back, and greedily rub against him. I’d also like to say that I didn’t greedily moan like a hussy when he reached one hand up my shirt, his fingers and mouth giving my breasts deliciously rough treatment.

I’d like to say all that; but if I did, I’d be a liar.

Because it happened.

His hands were hot and purposeful, and he used his body with delicious skill, rocking against me, causing me to gasp. His fingers deftly unbuttoned my jeans, slipped into my panties, parted me. I arched into him, clamoring to get closer, needing his touch and the friction of our shared embrace.

Flashes of him smiling, playing his guitar, quoting Emily Dickenson played through my mind; memories associated with wanting—wanting him, wanting this, wanting more. I wanted to be touched by him, possessed by him, claimed by him in a way that mirrored my desire and betrayed his need for me.

I opened my eyes and found him watching me, his silvery blue gaze piercing and savage. I saw his lack of self-control, the same feral madness that was overwhelming me.

Furthermore—and I know this will shock the hell out of people because it shocked the hell out of me—Drew brought me to the edge of euphoria and over its precarious precipice in less than sixty seconds. One minute I was fumbling to feel and taste him; then his mouth was on my breast and his hand was in my panties; then my head was thrown back and I was riding the rollercoaster, sky diving, and bungee jumping.

I was still so turned on, so hot for him, I couldn’t muster enough common sense to be embarrassed. As the tremors subsided—leaving my legs weak and wobbly, my body spent and humming—Drew wrapped his hand around the back of my head and brought my face to his chest. He nuzzled my cheek, his hot breath fell over my ear, and he bit my neck. Then, he licked it.

I held on to him so I wouldn’t fall on my ass. Speaking of my ass, Drew moved the lovely hand (that seconds ago had brought me to release) from the front of my panties to my bottom, and he squeezed me with a ragged sigh, like a moan escaping on an exhale.

“Fucking hell, I love your body,” he growled. “You are perfect.” He pulled me against him, alternately kissing and biting my jaw and collarbone.

My breathing hadn’t yet normalized and my heart was still beating a thunderous pace in my chest, but my mind was clearing, and it couldn’t believe what I’d just done, or rather, what we’d just done.

I exhaled roughly and blinked against the tears that were gathering in my eyes. Drew stilled, his mouth pressed against my shoulder. He must’ve sensed that I was crying or was about to cry, because he moved his hands to my upper arms and held me just far enough away to inspect my face.

“No, no, no….” he said in a rush, then he leaned forward and placed gentle kisses on my eyes. “No, don’t cry. Please don’t cry.”

“I’m a bad person,” I said, though it wasn’t precisely what I meant. If my brain had been functioning properly, I would have said something like, What in tarnation is wrong with me that I can’t stop thinking about you when my mother is dying and my evil father is about to show up and make all of us even more miserable, and you’re going to bear the brunt of his awfulness, and yet never far from my perpetual melancholy is the hope that you’ll find some way to take me in your arms, read me your poetry, rile me up with Nietzsche quotes, engage me in a battle of wits, and make me feel good.

“No, Ash. You’re not a bad person.”

“I am. I’m a horndog. I just got off in the shed at three o’clock on a Friday like a farm hussy, or a…a tool shed hussy.”

He chuckled and wrapped me in his arms, brought me against his delightful chest.

“No, Sugar. You are not; you aren’t any of those things. You are loveliness personified; you are grace and fascination. I think of you and I stop breathing. I worry that any movement will steal the image of you from my mind’s eye. But the memory is a pale, hollow specter to luminous reality. Because when I see you, when I touch you-”

“Oh my God, you have got to stop talking!” I grabbed his face with both my hands and brought his mouth to mine. If I hadn’t, I might have spontaneously exploded.

When I was sure he wouldn’t extract himself and continue torturing me with his prose, I wrapped my arms around his neck and stood on my tiptoes, relaxing into the delectable sensations caused by another perfect kiss.

Oxygen became a concern, and I was getting worked up again, so I pulled away, lowering my forehead to his shoulder and breathing heavy.

“I like how you shut me up.” Drew was also breathing heavily. He tried to run his fingers through my hair but failed. It was just too tangled from my fight with the straw pile.

“I like shutting you up.”

My admission made him laugh and he kissed my forehead and cheek. We stood together embracing in the shed for several short, quiet moments until our breathing evened and our hearts slowed.

I gnawed on my bottom lip, pulling it between my teeth, my mind occupied by the fact that I was standing in my momma’s shed with a man that I craved, trusted, but didn’t really know anything about. And he’d just brought me to orgasm in sixty seconds.

If there was ever a man I should get to know better, this man was him.

***

The walk back to the house wasn’t weird, and that was what was weird about it…if that makes sense. Also weird, we took the long way—the really, really long way.

Drew put his arm around my shoulders and I wrapped mine around his waist. I stole his cowboy hat and plunked it on my head. It was too big, so I pushed it back and let it rest at a precarious angle.

“I found a joke for you.”

I glanced up at him. “Really? What is it?”

“Have you heard my Nietzsche joke?”

“Uh, no.”

“Well, there isn’t one.”

I waited for a beat, confused. Then, I got it all at once and I rolled my eyes. “That’s a terrible joke.”